PROLOGUE
There’s a word for places like this. It’s not hokey, not kitschy, and it’s not exactly tired. And it’s not that this place is uncool, it’s just that, well, it’s trying too hard. And as soon as they can see you trying, well, that’s game over for you, pal.
But it’s not even 11, and nobody is going to see him in here anyways, not that it would matter much if they did. All that really matters is that this is a bar, that they serve alcohol here, that it’s 99% empty, and it’s dark, dreary, moody, dangerous. Like it was designed to precisely match his emotions. And my my, how fortuitously it appeared.
There he was, walking down the street, becoming one with the drizzle and the gloom of this, the first overcast, oppressive day in far too long. Ever since it happened, he’d longed for a day like this, a day that matched his mood. But impossibly, it’s been sunny and cloudless, perfectly pleasant, for weeks, not the most superb circumstance if you’re trying to get in touch with your inner demons. The niceness forced him to stay inside with his blinds closed, illuminated by dank candlelight, with only a few carafes of good scotch and an unannotated copy of The Count of Monte Cristo to accompany his withering, dithering soul.
But then the weather turned sour, sour enough to match his soul, and he decided it might be nice to go off in search of a stiffie, instead of simply rolling over and retrieving one from his night-table.
The mist and drizzle performed perfectly, coating his face in dramatic droplets, allowing him to get into just the kind of properly furious headspace in which he could relive and revise what happened. Not that the former weather had been stopping him, he’d been replaying it, tweaking it, revising himself pretty much nonstop since it happened. The current version of the event goes like this: he exits the conference room, but instead of leaving in a state of shock, he waits in Pat’s office, quietly, in Pat’s own chair. The Big Man comes in, relieved grin on his face, sees the man in his chair, and drops his jaw. “Caleb…what…what are you?”
But Caleb doesn’t give him the time.
“Alex Pepperidge? Fucking’ Alex Pepperidge!?” he screams, “Pardon me, sir, but he’s had his teeth in my ass for half a decade. Do you really think he could’ve done what he did if he didn’t ride me up? Three months, Pat, I’ll give it three months before he fucks you. You know what? Good luck. Good luck with him. Here. Yeah, here,” and in his mind, he scribbles down a phone number on a post-it, crumples the thing and tosses it in a perfect parabola, hitting vaunted restaurateur Pat Trier in his wrinkled, wet forehead. “Call me when you realize how three-ways fucked you are. Maybe then, we can both reconsider.” He can almost hear, somewhere past the car wheels and the thuderbolt threats, the slamming of the charred-oak door, behind him, the powerful, shaking silence of a man scorned. But of course, that isn’t how it went down at all.
Anyways, Caleb went out, walking and muttering and retconning for the umpteenth time, when a vengeful car from across the street switched lanes and passed wicked close to the curb and sent a huge wave of muddy street-water crashing upon him. He stood dripping and smelly and livid on the sidewalks, imagining how good it would feel to take a tire-iron to the driver’s head. But then, as if the car and the storm were in on some sick joke, the drizzle amassed power, demonstrating the supremacy of nature by beginning to come down in a fucking torrent. No matter how much Caleb had romanticized the standing in the gloom and getting drenched, it was just too extreme to stand, the reality being much less pleasant than the thought.
So, Caleb huddled himself into a nook off the sidewalk, trying to squelch the water from his slicked hair without disturbing the gel. Across the street, a brightly-lit bank sat at odds with the general melancholy of the day. Caleb stared forward and made eye contact with the dry, safe security guard standing militia-straight behind the dou-ble doors, a guy probably making only 55k a year, his dry, safe breath fogging Rorschach patterns on the glass. The guy didn’t take his eyes off of him for a second.
Unconsciously grumbling under his breath, Caleb realized all at once what he must look like to a stranger. The grumbling, together with his mangy, unshaven face and wild hair, made him look crazed, homeless perhaps, a madman. It suddenly became imperative that Caleb get off the street, get into hiding, get himself a drink.
And lo, kind fate had bestowed upon him its favor, for the nook he cowered in was not an empty nook, but a nook with stairs leading down, down to a door glowing red underneath a neon BAR sign. Strange, he didn’t see the door or the sign when he ducked out of the rain, but give the man some credit, his perception of late has been clouded by drink and self-pity and rage.
Emerging into the bar was like stepping into his own head. The theme, apparently, was “Black.” The long bartop over there and the floor tiles, the grout in between them, even the alcohol on the backbar all held within black vessels. Dingy, but in a sophisticated way, as if the dinginess had been designed and not devolved into. But again, troublingly on-trend. These dark, cavernous speakeasies are all the rage in the more secluded parts of the Pacific Northwest, it was only a matter of time before New York succumbed to their charm as well.
So, here’s Caleb, standing at the doorway, dripping, looking around for signs of life. No bartender, even at 11am, which is amateurish. No host, no coat boy. He knows he expects too much, and steps to the bar. Over by the far wall, past a few semi-circular outposts of blood-red bean bag chairs, are two cushioned half-moon booths, low to the ground, made semi-private by pink, sheer curtains. The only other life in here, besides the noisy rats in the walls, are sitting in one. A terrifically obese man with no hair lays back like in an opium fog, casually smoking a hookah, a redhead sprawled semi-unconsciously on his thigh. Neither pay Caleb any mind. He decides to pay them the same. There’s a spectral smell of things pickling.
Oh look, here comes the Bartender. Swaggering up, as bartender’s do, a great lilt in his step, perhaps he’s a bit drunk himself. The man runs a few smooth fingers over his bar’s black bottles, admiring them and their streaks of dust, before turning to Caleb, not so much looking at him as looking in him, as if Caleb is sharing a seat with another.
“Something to drink?” the man asks.
“Yeah, something with a little bite, if you please,” Caleb asks, suddenly feeling it vital to slick back his hair.
“My specialty,” the bartender says, all but winking. Could he possibly be interested? On another day, Caleb might explore the prospect further, but for now he’s content to watch the man’s lower half move down the length of the bar. You can’t blame Caleb for his lust, this gentleman is a truly handsome spectacle. Most dive bartenders are as chewed up, clawed and spit-slathered as their establishments, but this guy’s impeccable. There’s a sharpness to him, you know? Fingernails trim, nose pointed, devilish beard. Peaked lapels (though why wear a three-piece in a place like this?), skin so ghastly white it seems painted on. Dark eyes just about as black as the pupils within them, in fact, they’re almost all pupil. Yeah, sure, Caleb is a little smitten, but he’ll need a bit more fire in his belly, and maybe some snow in is nose, before he’d dare make a direct gesture. Best to just watch for now.
The bartender returns with two double old-fashioned glasses, each filled a third of the way with dark, amber liquid.
“Both of those for me?” Caleb asks.
The bartender smiles. “In a way,” he says. Both men pick up a glass. “Cheers to serendipitous meetings at 11:30 on a Tuesday.”
Here, here.
The drinks are knocked back. Bite was an understatement. It burns going down and burns long after.
“A little liquid fire to get you on my level,” the Bartender adds. He asks if Caleb wants something else and Caleb says, yeah, but, you know, maybe something sippable. The bartender has “just the thing,” and goes to get it. Over his shoulder, he asks, “So, what circumstances bring a man to this type of life so early in the week?”
“Long story.”
“You just ordered a sippable drink. Leaving anytime soon?”
“I don’t want to bore you. It’s work stuff.”
“Work stuff or lack of work stuff?” the bartender asks, returning with a grey drink in a snifter. He pushes it up to Caleb, who takes a whiff and winces. “This one’s called Brimstone.”
“Smells like it.”
“It’s sippable, but only just. It’ll definitely put some hair on your chest. If, that is, you don’t have enough already.” If that’s not a declaration of intent, Caleb doesn’t know what is. Maybe the snow isn’t necessary after all. Caleb smiles, takes a sip of the drink and shudders. It’s strong and bitter and tastes like it smells. Maybe it’s some putrid part of his imagination playing tricks, but, god damn, is that the pitter-pop of fresh hairs sprouting on his chest?
“It ain’t good, but it gets the job done.”
“Truly,” Caleb says, smiling while the bartender, rag slung over shoulder, goes to rinse-off glassware. “Lack of work stuff, by the way.”
“Hmm?”
“About the job. Uhm, lack thereof.”
“How long’s it been?”
“Two weeks,” Caleb says, wincing.“Ah, a fresh wound. No wonder you haven’t any dirt on your face…or under your nails.”
“Yeah,” Caleb says, taking as much time as he politely can before having another sip of Brimstone. Each one produces a larger shudder, like the liquid expands to further limbs and ligaments within him.
“Was it something you did, or was it just the Boss-man shafting you?”
“The latter, I’d say.”
“Fucking bosses! Fucking corporate executives, right? Not a care about anyone but themselves. Pardon me, I’m assuming you’re corporate. But you are, right?”
Caleb suppresses a smile. He’s taken pains to appear just so — the globs of gel slicking back his hair, the tan-hide coat and the sweater vest and the pink-checkered oxford collar — a corporate climber with no shame about what he is. Even on such a dreary day, even with such ignoble intentions as finding a cocktail before noon on a weekday, he keeps the appearance. This is not an accident. “That obvious?” he asks, knowing it is.
“I see a lot of people in this post. I’m pretty good at getting through to the core of them.” The Bartender smiles wickedly. “Mind if I pour myself something, sidle up beside you?”
Very forward. Caleb isn’t going to say no.
“Well, I’m not going to say no,” he says, pulling out the seat to his right. The Bartender takes a black mug full of a thick juice from the backbar and brings it with him. “What’s that drink called?”
“Still playing with the name,” the Bartender says, “Thinking about calling it ‘Cerberus.’”
“I’m detecting a theme.”
“A play on ‘hair of the dog.’ Tell me about this boss of yours.”
Where might Caleb even begin? The contrived haircut? The prostitutes called to his office in the middle of the workday? The endless complaints via text and call and email about everything from the ranch dressing being too thick or the servers’ outfits being too tight or the bulbs in the bathrooms not quite the right wattage? Or the late-night drunken demands?
(“Caleb! Bring the God-damned Escalade to The Stone Room, Freedman and I have some tail waiting for us at The Washington.”
“Caleb! You gotta go check on whatever the fuck is in my pool filter, Christina just called me freaking out and I, sure as shit, am not rooting around in there at 1:30 in the morning.”
“Caleb! Stop here! Freedman’s too shy to say it but he wants a fucking pizza so stop here, for Christ’s sake, and go fetch us one!”
Caleb, Director of Operations for these last years at five hugely successful midtown restaurants, on the very cusp of being made Junior Vice President, could be found most nights bringing pizzas to house parties, rummaging through Great Neck wine cellars at witching hours in search of some ridiculously expensive, fiendishly elusive ’86 Chateau Margaux or some shit. If one of Pat’s mistresses wanted something, it generally fell on Caleb to provide it. Anything which might edge him further towards the elusive promotion.)
Or the vulgarity? The lies? The false promises?
Unable to choose a specific area of import, he imports them all. With each new thought, his blood temperature ticks up a degree, his pitch gets louder.
“No wonder you’re here before noon.” A red gleam flashes in the Bartender’s black, black eye. He asks, “So how did it go down? How did he let you go, exactly?”
Caleb’s shoulder begins twitching, one of the many nervous tics he’s developed since the firing. The Bartender asks if Caleb is okay. He replies, “Trying to be. Trying to be.”
But he isn’t, not at all, and soon it all comes out, with historical accuracy this time: the meeting in the big, round room, the board surrounding him, all of them licking their chops like hungry sharks, eager to finally kill this career and chomp on its bones. Pat’s at the head of the table, way over there, and you can tell he’s suppressing a smile, the corner of his lips just barely quivering. And then, beside his master, Alex Pepperidge, corporate shitsucker, a twig-like thing in overpowering musk with an even twitchier nose than he, smiling, obviously smiling, and then he leans in, he leans in to Patrick, whispering something that makes Patrick Trier laugh. Guffaw, even. The nerve. The audacity. The disrespect. For years the cold war between Alex and Caleb had been waged savagely but secretly. But then it became hot, hot only for a moment and suddenly over. There was Alex the Cutthroat, slaying the Golden Boy in front of a crowd. It was positively Homeric.
Caleb fought for his name, pled his case. In his daydreams, he followed Pat into his office. In his daydreams, he had a line prepared. In his daydreams, he did the thing with the crumpled-up paper. But hindsight is incorruptible, and daydreams are fleeting. They caught him by surprise. They broke him into pieces right there in that meeting. They told him he was being pathetic. They told him the decision was final. They said he could still preserve his dignity as they ushered him out. He believed them. He actually believed them. As they closed the door behind him, he swore he heard the clinking of glasses.
The Bartender prods him further.
“You mean they didn’t even let you speak for yourself?
“They promoted this man, this inferior man, over you?
“Can’t you see how calculated it all was?
“Don’t you feel betrayed? “Does your pride not hurt?
“Don’t you feel wrathful?”
All the while, Caleb’s fists clench tighter, his eyes see redder. The very bar seems to change hue, turning reddish, and the heat seems to rise, the walls seem to sweat. Pools form underneath Caleb’s shaved armpits. Cold droplets drip down his torso. The Bartender is behind the bar now, pouring another drink, a drink that burns going down, and then another, and then is beside him again.
“What about your career?
“They made you a pariah.
“It’s all his fault, right?
“It’s all their fault!”
Caleb may not have thought so before, but he certainly does now. He thinks everything the Bartender tells him to. His rage is justified. Blind fury is the only proper response. This is a slight the very universe has designed; his rival and his old boss are servants of a terrible God. The universe is an unjust place —
“— ruled by an unjust God, wouldn’t you agree?”
Of course Caleb agrees.
“And this isn’t enough for such a God. He’ll ruin you, he’ll destroy you. Is that not the only way it ends?”
Of course it is!
“You must do something. These are vengeful, petty, spiteful workers of a hateful God with spiders in their hearts. They drink the prospect of your suffering like Satanists drink blood from a skull.”
Of course they do.
Then the Bartender’s tongue grows long and scaly. Snakelike, it enters into Caleb’s ear, pulling the Bartender’s face close from within Caleb’s own cranium. “What if I said I could help you?”
“What if?” Caleb asks.
“What if I could bring you back to the top, give you all the success, the money, the title you’ve always craved, a perch so very high up you can look down and sneer upon wee Alex Pepperidge, so high up you can spit down upon Patrick Trier and have it become a fireball by the time it smashes down into him?”
“I’d say that sounds too good to be true,” Caleb says, imagining his arms spread out over a smooth, black desk, knuckles hard upon its surface, the open landscape of the world’s most magnificent city visible through the giant windows behind him, its meager population at his every beck and call.
“Hmm, I suppose it does that sound that way. But, in fact, all you have to do is sign,” the Bartender says, pushing towards Caleb a piece of paper and an old-timey quill dripping with red ink.
“What is this?” Caleb sputters out.
“You know what it is,” the Bartenders says. He flings his arm out towards the bar, and all the tops of all the black bottles blow skyward; all kinds of dark animals — snakes and beetles and bats and worms with hides black as onyx — freshly freed, slither and creep and fly out into the bar like some kind of Halloween Hellscape.
“Who — who are you?” Caleb stammers, hallucinating, surely hallucinating, just piss drunk or something.
“You know who I am.” Red liquid, like that on his quill, viscous as blood, oozes out from the cracked gout in the wall, staining the words You Know Who I Am upon it.
“What do you say?” the Bartender asks, snake’s tongue flicking outward. The fat man behind the curtain blows a huge cloud of sulfurous smoke that grows and grows and begins engulfing the bar. “Do we have a deal?”
Caleb looks at the walls. He knows exactly who this is, exactly what this is, and exactly what he’d give up in exchange for all he’s been promised. He looks the Devil in his eyes, in his black, black eyes.
“You promise I’ll get my vengeance?”
“Yes.”
“You promise I’ll be so high up I can look down on them? On everyone?”
“Higher still.”
“I want to be on top of the world.”
“You’ll have a corner office there, with a window all your own to peer through. Your station, your advancement, your meteoric rise,” the Devil says, his left hand absentmindedly twirling an all-black Rubik’s Cube, “all that work, you will finally taste its fruits. I’m not as bad as the stories would have you believe, Caleb Swami. I’m an agent of justice. And what’s happened to you, sir, is unjust.”
That’s all it takes to get the pen in Caleb’s hand. But first, a pertinent question.
“Will it hurt?”
“Not you.”
As he signs his name on the dotted line, one more question.
“How is this going to work?”
“Oh, I have an idea.”
“And what is that, exactly?” Caleb asks, rather brazenly.
The Devil smiles, revealing rows of sharpened shark teeth where his molars, incisors and the like should be. All he need say is one word, and he says it:
“Bananas!”